LIFE IS TOO SHORT

LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO WAKE UP WITH REGRETS. SO LOVE THE PEOPLE WHO TREAT YOU RIGHT. LOVE THE ONES WHO DONT JUST BECUASE YOU CAN. BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. IF YOU GET A SECOND CHANCE,GRAB IT WITH BOTH HAND .IF IT CHANGES YOUR LIFE,LET IT. KISS SLOWLY.FORGIVE QUICKLY.GOD NEVER SAID LIVE WOULD BE EASY.HE JUST PROMISED IT WOULD BE WORTH IT.

THIS WAS SENT TO ME BY A VERY SPECIAL FRIEND IT IS SOMETHING SHE HAD GOT FROM ANOTHER FRIEND ON LINE. WHEN YOU READ THE WORDS READ THEM SLOW,READ THEM OUT LOUD AND LISTEN TO YOUR SELF.

MY LAST CHEMO TREATMENT WAS A ROUGH ONE THE WEEK AT WORK WAS ROUGH I HAD A LOT TO THINK ABOUT. I WENT TO MY DOCTOR THE DAY BEFORE MY CHEMO TO SEE WHAT OTHER OPTIONS I HAD.YOU KNOW IT IS HARD TO BE SITTING IN THE DOCTORS OFFICE AND HE SAYS OK RENA WE CAN STOP CHEMO RIGHT NOW AND YOU ARE TO GO HOME AND ENJOY EVERY MINUTE YOU HAVE BECUASE YOUR TIME WILL BE FAST AND LOTS OF PAIN. WE CAN DROP THE CHEMO 10% AND YOU KEEP DOING THE CHEMO YOU WILL STILL HAVE SOME PAIN BUT A LITTLE LONGER LIFE .YOU SIT THERE AND YOU HEAR THIS AND YOU THINK OK GOD YOU SAY YOU ONLY PUT ON OUS WHAT WE CAN HANDLE I AM AT THAT POINT. I KNOW YOU KNOW ME BETER GOD THAN I KNOW MY SELF . BUT I M AT THAT BREAKING POINT. THEN AS YOU SIT THERE YOU SEE THAT THE DOCTOR LIPS ARE MOVING BUT YOU ARE NOT HEARING ANYTHING. YOU ARE SITTING THERE JUST LOOKING AT THEM PRAYING TO YOUR SELF.

I COME HOME STILL NOT KNOWING WHAT MOVE TO TAKE NEXT SO RON AND I TALK IT OVER WE GO FOR THE 10% LESS CHEMO. THURSDAY WAS A LONG DAY AT WORK WONDERING IF I HAD MADE THE RIGHT DECISION ON WHAT TO DO. 1:00pm GET HER AUNT DIANE AND LINDSEY ARE THERE TO PICK ME UP NOT KNOWING ANYTHING THAT HAD WENT ON FOR THE WEEK POOR AUNT DIANE SHE HAS ME TP PUT UP WITH, HER MOM AND NOW HER SISTER HAS BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL WHAT IS NEXT SO I CANT TELL HER WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON SHE HAS TO MUCH ON HER MIND HER OWN HEALTH ISNT THE BEST BUT SHE CANT SLOW DOWN TO TAKE CARE OF HER SELF SHE HAS THE REST OF US.

WELL I GET TO CHEMO MY PORT GIVE POOR KATHY A FIT AS TEARS RUN DOWN MY FACE KATHY LOOKS SO SAD THINKING SHE IS HURTING ME SHE TELLS ME SHE IS SORRY AND I TELL HER I AM BECUASE I AM SUCH A PAIN. BUT WE GET IT WORKING AND 2 HOURS LATER I GET TO LEAVE.

SO TACO BELL HERE WE COME I AM ON A TACO, SWEET TEA, MANGO ICEE, FRUIT KICK. THEN ON TO GOODIES AND THEN TO M.T.HOME WAL-MART YOU GOTTA GO TO WAL-MART. THEN TO FLIPPIN TO GET MY TRUCK. ON THE WAY HOME I KEEP ASKING GOD PLEASE HELP ME GET HOME." I DID IT"I GOT HOME FELT SICK TOOK SOME MEDS AND PLAYED ON THE COMPUTER A LITTLE WHILE AND WHEN I COULDNT HOLD MY HEAD UP ANYLONGER TO BED I WENT. WASNT A BAD NIGHT SO FAR NOT A BAD DAY. SOOOOOOOOOOO THANK
YOU GOD THIS 10% LESS MY WORK WE WILL SEE.