TEST 12/11/08

TODAY I WENT TO MT.HOME FOR SOME TEST. GOTTA GET READY TO GO TO UAMS AGAIN. MY AUNT DIANE WENT WITH ME ( SHE TOOK ME) I HAVE TO HAVE SOME DRUGS TO KNOCK ME OUT BEFORE I DO A PET SCAN OR MRI ANYTHING THAT HAS TO DO WITH A TIGHT MACHINE. WE GOT THE TEST RAN. THEN WENT SHOPPING. I HAVE TRIED TO GET IN THE SHOPPING MOOD TO DO SOME CHRISTMAS SHOPPING BUT I CANT. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET EVERY BODY. THEN I TRY TO SIT A BUDGET THEN I THINK WHAT IF I AM NOT HERE NEXT YEAR WILL THEY REMEMBER THIS CHRISTMAS AS ME BEING CHEAP,WILL THEY REMEMBER HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM. SO CHRISTMAS SO FAR FOR ME SUCKS. I DONT THINK ANYBODY REMEMBERS THE REAL REASON FOR THE SEASON. THE LAST THREE YEARS HAVE BEEN CRAZY FOR OUR FAMILY. ITS TIME TO BE A NORMAL FAMILY DO NORMAL FAMILY THINGS. I CAN ONLY HOPE AND PRAY THAT BY BOYS WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THEY ARE MY LIFE, MY LIFE WAS THEM. AND THEY ALWAYS REMEMBER THE REAL REASON FOR THE SEASON...