4th CHEMO

WELL HERE I GO 4th CHEMO 2 HARD AND 2 EASY ONES. BUT THE HARD ONES ARE GETTING ME DOWN. SO MONDAY MD ANDERSON & DR.WHITE IS GOING TO HAVE A TALK AND SEE WHAT IS NEXT.DO I STOP THE CHEMO ? DO THEY JUST CHANGE THE AMOUNT THAT IS ON THE HARD WEEKS. DO WE RUN MORE TEST. I SAY IT IS IN THE LORDS HANDS. I DONT LIKE BEING SICK. I DONT LIKE THE TIME IM LOOSING EVERY WEEK OF MY LIFE. YOU SIT AND WONDER WHAT IS THE BETTER BEING SICK NOW & LIVE LONGER BUT WHO NOWS HOW LONG NO ONE BUT GOD. THEN YOU WONDER WHY. IM A GO GETTER LOVE SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY & FRIENDS HAVING FUN GOGOGOGOGOGOG. SO THIS IS HARD ON ME FEELS LIKE IT HAS ALREADY STARTED TAKING MY LIFE MINUTE BY MINUTE. I LOOK BACK I HAVE HAD A GREAT LIFE TWO WONDERFUL BOYS. A LOVING CARING HUSBAND. A WONDERFUL FAMILY ON BOTH SIDES. WONDERFUL FRIENDS. I HAVE BEEN BLESSED. SO HERE IS TO ANOTHER WEEK OF LIFE THAT I THINK GOD FOR EVERYDAY..